戒心

失落沙洲…

变成我喜爱的歌了…

是有遇过类似的故事吗…

就从那个时候…

起了无法解掉的戒心…

就算真的一个大好人出现在面前…

对我来说都是假的…

真的真的…我怕…

你能化解我的恐惧吗…

我又能靠自己化解这恐惧吗…

我不知道…我没信心…

来到这里后…

没再像以前一样 每天流泪…

我很高兴…因为来了这里…

靠。

电饭锅坏了…

怎么煮饭吃啊…

饿死吧我…

哈…

0626

人越长越大的时候…

想的东西还真的会变得越来越多…

想变回小孩 也是不可能的事…

几个月没见了…

任何能连络到的方法

全早被删除了…

为的是不让自己再伤心…

今天MSN突然响起…

我们只谈几句…

“好就好”

好像也没别的话题了…

“我想你”

这句话就这样憋在心里几个月了…

就算是自己的好朋友也没提…

因为会被骂…哈…

大家都说

“忘记他吧”

我能做到吗?

home

reached home..
Im tired..

i missed you,son..
mommy's home..
x)

不懂

有时候还真搞不懂自己…

搞不懂心情会不好的原因…

然后就会对自己发脾气…

以前用篮球来发泄…

还曾经累得自己很容易就哭了出来…

在他面前像个小孩子哭泣，还真是头一次…

后来用音乐控制情绪…

现在似乎慢慢用单车来散心…

我喜欢你

这东西，好像不认识了…

没信心面对 还是 在逃避?

搞不清楚…

莫名的吃醋 又是为什么

弄得自己想很多

该死的山羊，

不爱说话 爱自闭

总是观察人太多，

所以喜欢和别人隔层膜…

曾经的勇敢 被他弄不见了

是找不到了 还是 不想再找了?

搞不懂了…

老山羊说过，

勇敢追求没有错，

一直错过才是错…

小山羊常常就是爱错过，

因为没有勇气，所以甘愿为了保护自己而错过…

有谁会有本事顶得顺这只山羊…

笑话…呵呵…

sweet dream~

I dream someone..

hahax..

It happened this afternoon~ in school library~

dream until I refuse to wake up~ lolx..

really happy to have him in my dream..=)

rainny days~

cycling days~

I love them.. x)

==

见鬼了…

竟然吃醋…

我不想做这种蠢事咯…

显

不知道要怎么去无视有你的回忆

不想再看到相识的画面

music

Music's controlling my mood...

No music..

No me..

insane,dude..

wow...

ipoh again..

for movie [Karate Kid]~

nice movie wei~ x)

& then...

stayed at McD from 1am til 4am..

Just to wait for McD breakfast!!

lolx..so zadao..

but worth..

thnx to my dear , Hoong & capricorn boy~

hahax~~

back to kampar 5am in the morning~

this is cool!!nice!!

we're insane~lolx..

Hoong says ' no more next time....'

thnx the 2 boys..

they're really good..xD

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听到妈妈的哭声…

心 还真特别的痛…

全家人有危险…

自己一个人在这里…

还真特别的难受…

真是没用的家伙。

0613

hmmm...

looks like I'm not going back for a month..

I've got used to my life here..

glad~ x)

my housemate asked me a weird question today..

' why you single de?' [chinese translate to English la~]

what answer should I give him?

==

I replied him as below..

'Because I have no boyfriend lo~

so I'm single~'

good answer?

but it seems like it's not a answer huh..

lolx.. whatever..

I dont care..

I found many 'gold turtle' here~ =D

puding is one~ bear is also one~

wanna go fish for them already~lolx..

big joke big joke~

owh my dear..

meeting a Capricorn boy makes me happy,

doesnt mean that I wanna find a capricorn boyfriend..

Just that I felt like I found friend..=)

Ipoh day~

Today's a great day..hahax..

went to Ipoh this morning..

& finally~~

I had my McD!!!

owh~ Im so satisfied~

so so so so happy, man~ xD

Went Jusco & Ipoh parade~

Jusco's not bad~

Ipoh parade..looks like another Sg. wang to me..

bought some apple from Jusco..

bought some "telephone line"..

bought erasers..

& I found my red earring.. =D

suddenly like blood colour earring..

feel that they suits me a lot..

yea..they suit me..& I like them..

I learnt things after moving in here..

protecting myself is very important..

dont be silent when you got bullied..

dont only defense when you're being attacked..

Fight back with bravery is what you need to do..

I'll do things on my way,

It's time for you to pay for it.

I'm no 'suit whatever you like' person anymore.

I had my limit.

oh ya..

I found a capricorn boy..=D

& Im happy~x) hahax~

0609

很想像小孩子那样，

累了，心情不好了，

就大大声得哭出来…

随心所欲的…

什么都不需要多想…

很累…

累得想哭…

上课不明讲师讲的话，

常常上到晚上，

一直觉得为何一天不能有48小时?

也许这样，时间就够用了…

那种压力，那种累…

有时会弄到自己想自闭，

连housemate都不想理会…

真的没那个力气和心情去理他们了…

真抱歉…

就单单刚才洗衣的事，

袜子和衣服一起放进洗衣机洗，

有问题吗?

最后不都全部洗干净的吗?

我很frustrated了…

我没力吵了，随便好了…

还有三年呢…

所以不能放弃…

可是想哭…

显。

你不会明白我的…

因为你一直都当我是无聊的…

算了吧…

tired

I tired..

How long can I stand this?

wanna chat with you..

but you're studying..

exam jia you dear..

0607

After moving to Kampar..

things to write bout life..

seems to be lesser & lesser..

how? & why..

maybe It's because friends are not here?

....

maybe..

moving to Kampar..

there're reasons behind the scene..

lolx..

I myself know.. x)

I know you miss me..

You know I miss you too..

please come back to see me here..

will you..

I hope you will..

0605

I found that I'm cold blooded..

sometimes I hard to have feelings towards somethings..

My friends feel sad when leaving KL to Kampar..

they feel happy when leaving Kampar to KL..

but why I feel nothing..

or it's normal?

sometimes I didnt even think of going home..

why?

going back kampar tmr..

& still.. I have no feeling too...

haha..

0604

see...this face is damaged..

I think I need to wear a mask for the rest of my life adi.. ==

oh no..no more nice nice adi...

wanna cry liao.. ==

save me..
a skirt i like..

nice combination of pink & purple..=D

ya..sister & sister..

wearing the same skirt..

compare..

who's prettier??

sure is the one holding hp geh~

muahahaha...

bad day..

What da' heck!!

Im late for class today..

Not that I purposely late for it..

is the shuttle bus!!

I've been waiting for the bus for more than 1 hours.. ==

& then !!

I'm late for 1 hour.. ==

1.5 hours class, I late for 1 hour..

cool..that's really my record in this 19 years..

had class from 6.30pm to 8pm..

wow..

that Ms.Yap ar..

I bet she was a lawyer before she join Utar for teaching..

keep on talking..

It's like we have contract with her,

& we bleach the contract,

& she wanna sue us.. ==

that's not a proper way to use law... ==

after 8pm class..

ran as fast as I could..

to chase for the last bus..

this is also my 1st time chasing bus in my life..

today suck!!!

maybe im crazy adi..

so just now video with dear,

keep on shooting him, 'stepping' him..

dont mind la~~sry sry sry sry~~

infinity times of sry..

dear..must choi me....wuwuwu...T.T

a bit tired...phew..

tmr 2pm class..

& then back to KL..

meiow..wait for me..

well?

I wanna write something~

but there's nothing for me to write.. ==

funny huh~

Just started my school life here..

wow..

cycling to school is really healthy, man!

so cool~so hot too~xD

cant imagine what my skin colour will be after 3 year..

I dont wanna be Ms chocolate!! T0T

& ptptn loan..

I'm coming!!!!!