helpless

What if I say..

I will be terminated?

I have no confident..

talking about confidence..

I'm always the loser in this game..

teach me how to win..would ya?

If it really happens..

Will my sky be dark forever..?

Will they treat me worse..?

tears dripping inside my heart..

fear grows inside me..

negative thinkings took over my whole mind..

what should I do?

I'm not kidding..

But they thought I was joking..

they see me so calm..

But the truth?I'm crying inside..

Who knows?

I'm not learning to be tough..

I'm forcing myself to be tough..

I'm not learning to control my tears..

I'm forcing myself not to cry..

I decided to throw those 2 things away temporarily..

& now I'm crying..pressure..fear..

I need a friend's shoulder to lay on..

who ever it is..

would you be the one?

It seems that..

I'm helpless..