suddenly feel blank..

lost a bit safety..?

sometimes..

i do like not to tell when hurt..

i do like to hide when crying..

i do like to be quiet when im angry or sad..

because..

when im angry,i say things impolitely..

when im angry & hurt,i cry..

when i cry, i hate being treated as a weak person..

that's why 

i hide,i kept quiet, i dont tell..


i've been telling myself every night these days..
just go to sleep.. he wants you to sleep early..
fold your arms, lay on your bed..
just sleep..
still.. sleeping without hearing your isn't easy..


waiting for your call..
became something that must be done every night..
but then..?


it's hard to change a habit..


stop it! 
why did you cry? 
it's you yourself who wanna be like tat, 
so why did you cry?

……


只是觉得常常想和你说话的时候…
是说不到一半
就得盖电话
然后慢慢等待…


为什么一直都要等到睡着了
才等到你的电话…


是你任性
还是我任性了…


还是我无理取闹了…




越在乎，心就越容易被伤到…
在乎…没错的吧…
因为想念多了，所以想说话 听声音…
也是没错的吧…

是不是…我错了…

why do this feeling coming back again..

will i cry every night again..

no..

i should be tough..

i can be tough to everything..

but why it doesnt include things u did and gave to me..

actually..

it's a good thing that i didnt blog for a long time..

signalling that im still happy always..

haha..

darn..

screw it.