suddenly feel blank..

lost a bit safety..?

sometimes..

i do like not to tell when hurt..

i do like to hide when crying..

i do like to be quiet when im angry or sad..

because..

when im angry,i say things impolitely..

when im angry & hurt,i cry..

when i cry, i hate being treated as a weak person..

that's why 

i hide,i kept quiet, i dont tell..


i've been telling myself every night these days..
just go to sleep.. he wants you to sleep early..
fold your arms, lay on your bed..
just sleep..
still.. sleeping without hearing your isn't easy..


waiting for your call..
became something that must be done every night..
but then..?


it's hard to change a habit..


stop it! 
why did you cry? 
it's you yourself who wanna be like tat, 
so why did you cry?